How do you let go?

How do you let go of something you've known and cherished for so long?

How do you compromise between wanting and needing?

Is it better to not say it at all and avoid the regret or saying it and knowing you can never take it back?

It's been a pretty good week, I want to try this- If we pray for a divine appointment to share our faith everyday, God will give it to us.

And i've always been unsure about my future after college, and then on Sunday, a thought came to me- why not go to bible college? I mean I want to live for God, I want to share His love, I want to go on mission trips and share the gospel with as many people as possible. Why not?

I love weetbix and oatmeal, seriously. Like, the best choices.

2.5 kilos

I've lost 2.5 kilos since the beginning of january.

I've been eating an average of about 1100 calories, or less or more this past week.

I have a question- Should I tell the boy I like him? When? After my exams?(Ends in December)

It's been a bad week for me. I think my friend saw my fresh cuts, but she already knows. I just don't want to make her sad.

I wish I knew everything

Nearly binged today.

I don't know how to say this aloud without boasting, I'm so scared of my pride, so I'll say it here. A few weeks ago, I was anointed with the gift of tongues.

Today, I saw the boy with someone else even though I was SO SURE God promised me he was supposed to be mine. I was so ready to throw everything away, and then I remembered the gift of tongues, MY gift of tongues, and I couldn't ignore it.

I need to learn how to stop loving the boy. I love him to the Kuiper belt and beyond, but he's not mine.

I cut today.