Unbearable Sadness

There it goes again.
The feeling I always forget to dread; to look out for.
Like a thick cloak that swamps my entire being
or a dark, tangible cloud hovering like 2 vultures.
There it goes again.
Melancholy,
Sneakier, stealthier more silent
than Anorexia.
But devours more quickly and completely.
Harder to control too.

Blooaaaat

I bloat SO bad. I don't even know what to do about it. It's not like I eat a ton of food, it can be just a bowl of cereal and a mug of water and my tummy bloats.
And I don't know how this happens but whenever I do resistance/ strength training for my arms, they actually seem to get BIGGER. Aren't they supposed to get taut?
I'm not sure about my weight now, but my i've been doing loads of cardio, pilates, resistance and strength.

What i'm doing now:
Avoiding carbs
Walking a lot more instead of taking the bus etc,
And videos i'm using:
Victoria's Secret Abs
Victoria's Secret- Core
Pop Pilates- Abs

These are SO GOOD, not even kidding.

Rainbowwww:D

So yesterday I went shopping for the first time in like 2 months. I am like extremely poor, I think I mentioned that before. So I can only buy like at most 2 things? And one of the things I bought was this!

This really cute leopard print rainbow top from Forever 21. The type where you have to layer it over a cami or tank or bandeau. So the other thing I bought was just this cream colored cami, cuz I have loads of layer-over shirts too. This top should be a really fun and challenging one to accessorise and wear with other clothes:)
I love fashion and shopping so incredibly much.
In SOME way it's a good thing I can't afford too much clothes cuz putting together an outfit is always a new challenge.... unless i'm in a rush:(
Have a great day/ evening girls:)

Argh. Period, go away...

I'm having my period after... 3 months, which obviously means i'm eating wayyy too much. It came back with a vengeance. The cramps were so bad today I could barely hobble home from the bus stop.
I like, seriously hate it when boys play with your emotions by like, not texting back and all. They just CANNOT understand that we can't help reacting this way.. :(

Went to Quiznos with my friends today, and as usual, spammed the honey mustard. Can't resist that stuff. How many calories I ate today, I do not want to know. I love pilates workouts, seriously. They are pretty fun compared to crunches or other boring workouts.

Checked out Sephora today. I can't wait to start working after my A levels, so I can earn money to buy more makeup:)

This song is AMAZING