In the balance

I'm hanging in the balance between my eating disorder and normalcy. A balance that could tip either way at any time. I'm scared of either possibility. 

Why I deactivated my facebook my account:

-It makes me feel as if I''m being tied with strings to everybody

-It became a burden after I created tumblr

-I can't be myself there..as in, since it's full of people that know me in real life, I have to pretend like I do in real life, and I'm sick of that already. Pretending in real life is enough

-The truth is, I only wanna add people that are CLOSE to me, but I have no choice but to also add those who aren't close to me or they'll get offended

-I prefer blogger and tumblr x10000000000000000000000000000000005

-I need a break from this perpetual connection with people