The Brilliant Plan

Like, why didn't I see it before?!!! It's so FUCKING OBVIOUS.
Like, I just look at the vast size of my upper arm and I realize that this atrocity which goes by the unfortunate name of Eating Normally can no longer continue.

The plan : Maximum: 400-500 calories a day! Watch the pounds melt off!
Tomorrow:
Breakfast: Tuna 30
                 One slice wholemeal bread 74
Break one: Water
Break two: 3 rice cakes 73.5
                   Peanut butter 30
                   Apple 50
Dinner: max 200

Brilliant brilliant brilliant.

I just feel like being 90lbs RIGHT NOW. So maybe.... after a (short) while.

I am so super hyper right now. Crazy mood swings. Can't even focus. Can't study. Listening to Boney M and bobbing around. Sometime I seriously wonder if I MIGHT have some slight form of bipolar. This afternoon I was contemplating cutting the jugular into 2, neat, separate pieces. And they always say "apply pressure to the wound"- how would one do that to a completely severed jugular? Then I got overcome with a wave of pure exhaustion. And now- MY THOUGHTS ARE JUMPING EVERYWHERE!!!!! How am I supposed to study wait- I don't care. Fuck. Gonna continue watching Thin documentary by Lauren Greenfield.