Broken in a good way

Today was the official last day as a class having normal lessons. It was so painful. This is the one and only class i never had to conform, to pretend, where i've met the best people i've ever met in my life, the most caring, supportive, encouraging awesome teachers.Where EVERYONE accepted everyone just the way they were, no acting involved. And now i'm gonna have to say goodbye to all of that and next year will be another normal year of conforming, peer pressure and pretending to be someone i'm not. Today was the day i realized these friends are the only people in the world i am not scared to let them see me cry.

At the end of the day, one of the people i've recently become really really close to told me "Thank you for being my friend, thank you for being so fun to hang out with and giving me and teaching me so much, I love you, Sarah" (that's my name)

It made me realize how i've never told anyone i love them. How many people i've let walk in and out of my life without ever letting them know how much i love them, how much they mean to me, how i'd give anything to be able to hold on to them when i had to let go. I haven't cried so much in so long. Well if anything, I've made up my mind i'm gonna stop being so afraid to tell someone i love them and thank them for everything they've done to me.

Earlier in the morning, one of my BEST friends told me to write in her autograph book. I had SO much to say to her, and only paper to say them on.. i tried to put most of it in the book, but it'll never be enough. I ended of the "message" with "Thanks for being in my life". But i still feel it's not enough.

How i wish i could find everyone whose ever been close to me, tell them i love them, tell them i really appreciate everything they've done for me, how they've all changed me for the better in their own way and thank them for the role they've played in my life and how i'm a better person because of that.

Ok, i know there's absolutely no thinspo here, what you guys follow me for, but i really hope this post will touch you and hopefully open your eyes to stuff and change your perspective on some things:)

Ps: Thanks for following me and supporting me:)