Just when i thought i would be alone.

Deepavali today, meaning it's a public holiday, meaning my family is at home. EWWWW. I wanted to be alone and study reaaal hard today cuz i didn't study at all yesterday... it's SO hard to study when they're all at home. It's like the fuckin weekend. I HATE WEEKENDS. It's when all of them are around and i hate them.. have i ever mentioned i love mondays?:) Weird? yeah, maybe, but it means that dreaded weekend is over.

Something's up with my colon. The thing is that if i eat a little (this usually applies to mornings.. and sometimes in the afternoons), i will be hungry, BUT, if i eat enough to be sure i won't be hungry, i get diarrhea.. so i eat more:)

Yesterday, i knew my dad would make me eat some fattening carbs filled lunch.. so before and after i ate, ate a couple of prunes, and afterwards a cup of diluted apple cider vinegar and a couple cups more plain water.. and i got myself a recipe for lovely diarrhea to flush all that disgusting lunch out..

I really need to perfect my method of getting self-induced diarrhea...

Gonna try and finish my social studies by dinner then spend tonight reading The Prisoner Of Azkaban:)

Ps.. when i know i am causing people hurt, i would really love to stop it, but the thing is they don't know i know, and i don't want to embarrass them by going up to them and talking about it.. so i don't know what to do..