WEIGHTS!!!:(

So. Obviously. I so do NOT want to put weight. 

 (btw, please bear with me. This is the first time in AGESSSS i've had time to blog so i obviously have like LOADS to say.)

Hm. So. I'm in soccer. And i've kinda been eating normally- i have soccer on Monday, Wednesday, Saturday and sometimes Friday. Then i have Phys Ed on Tuesday and Thursday. I WAS under the impression that due this crazy exercise schedule, i could actually get away with eating normally. Apparently not. Yesterday for soccer, we had a 2hr45min intensive physical training in the gym. And guess the hell what!!!! We had to FREAKING LIFT FucKiNG WEigHTS!!! Imma sure gunna put on muscle weight! So... I obviously have no choice but to compromise on the eating. Sigh. 

I've only had time to plan a rough draft of my eating plan. 

first would obviously be to cut down on carbs TO THE FREAKING MAXXXXX.

I'm thinking about 800 -1000 calories a day?? 

I just need to get into that diet mood first. JUST NEED THAT DAMN MOTIVATION>(

School is seriously driving me nutttsss and it's only been the 3rd week of school...

I've barely used the com at all since it freaking started man...

I've just been so.... stressed. So busy, i'm so scared i give up/ burn out. I've been eating too much. Cutting all again. Yes. That again :(

Manz... 

And it's just gonna get WORSE:(((

(and to think a few years ago i swore i would never lift weights again)