Pissed

With myself. Not going to a friend's birthday party tomorrow cuz it's a formal event and I'm too ugly and fat to wear formal stuff.

Woke up LATE and ate too much AGAIN. Monday Wednesday, Thursday ( Tue's a hol) and Friday-I'm gonna eat no more than 200 calories a day.

Jogging later, even if it kills me.

I hate myself so much right now.

Told them I'll see about whether I'll go to the party. Obviously I'm not, because I'm too fat and ugly.