Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Confused much?

So.
I keep trying and trying but the words just refuse to come out. Trying to describe what i'm going through.
I have this hard shell around me right now. I don't even dare to pray. I'm afraid the comfort of prayer might be like the force of gentle water, crumbling the fortress i need so badly around my heart.
So much incomprehensible pain and twisted emotions.
Doing things not because i want to, but purely out of habit.
Ate 3 fuckin pieces of toast this morning. What the hell is wrong with me?
I HATE HATE HATE my face, my smile, my hair. (My weight) (my height)
Fuck i hate myself so much.

Stuck in a damn rut.

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