gym later
Oh and by the way, the camp next week? I'm going to have my period. Fuck.
I'm in the mixed school for the first time in 10 years and the boys are literally like aliens. I have no idea how to... i don't know... relate to them??? Gahh. It's soooo weird. Boys. And i hate orientation. I CANNOT be enthusiastic. I just don't have it in me. And i never act- as in pretend to be happy when i'm not etc. My usual expression is emo-sad, so when being enthusiastic completely uses up all my energy reserves (yes. It takes me a lot of effort) , my emo-sad expression worsens times about 5.
And everyone's like asking me why i look so down/sad/miserable/like i don't want to be here (of course not). My result is good enough to go to a really good, brand school and i ended up in a heartland neighbourhood school...
But i still love college. Just wait till the horrible orientation camp and whatever not is over. I know i'll like it:) It's gonna be soooo tough. = :)
A consolation of being in this school is that due to my good results, i'm practically in the top 10% of the entire cohort, and i had a chance to enter this scholarship programme.. where you get to go to university for free. I gave it up cos the route is TOO tough.
Just got a call from the college. No History for me. SHIT.
I wanted history sooooooo bad.
Fuck my life. Gonna take Econs.
No comments:
Post a Comment