My weight isn't really decreasing. However, my willpower is increasing. Today was not good, cuz my friends, a bunch of them who are starting to suspect something and are getting worried, invited me out. So I decided a small plate of pasta should put them off for a while. I mean if I eat a (what seems to me ) BIG plate of pasta, I can't be "starving myself" right. But they tried to persuade me to add cheddar cheese to it ( AS IF!!!!!) and they were all staring at me and waiting for my response and the only thing I can think of was "..... But cheese is so faaat!" and my friend was like "Sarah, it's just cheese". Luckily for me a few of them were "dieting" too (ie eat one HUGE entrée plus one salad drenched in dressing) so I managed to turn the convo to cheese and how some might be fattening etc. And when I didn't want to eat salad at all when it has dressing on it someone asked me "Why, are you a cow?" and I heard "Are you count?" So i'm like "count what?" And someone's like "count calories! Do you count calories! Hahaha". They have no idea. NO IDEA.
Yup, so lunch out with my friends was REALLY awkward. For me at least. At least I wasn't made to eat ice cream, like the last time. I know you might be thinking- I can just say no, it's MY choice etc. But once they THINK it, it's mega hard to get rid of suspicions.
Anyway, i've succeeded in my first knitting project. Well not totally. I made a pouch for my bible cuz my bible is quite battered and I felt like making something anyway, so yep, I haven't sewed up the sides yet and it's a tad too big, but i'm with the whole thing.
Happy eleven eleven eleven! How fun is that! I know it's childish but, whatever...
Gosh. I just want to be thin again. Less size of me to hate.
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