Shutthefuckup

My bloody family. Mentioned last night at dinner that going for one of those body fat percentage tests thingies would be cool.... could I go to the one at my mom's workplace sometime? And, like, BAM! My grandmother starts telling me about this new article about this 43KG anorexic woman who fell to her death (Uhmmmm like totally not related much?!) My dad starts talking about there's no need to cuz teenagers have toned bodies, very little fat, nothing to worry about (WTF HE IS BLIND). My mom starts talking about the importance of eating stupid carbs, that the machine is probably inaccurate blah blah blah. I shouted OK FINE I WON"T GO I WAS JUST CURIOUS! I WAS KIDDING!

Bloody hell.

I had about 900 fucking calories today- had to eat this box of carbs (286) (does what the food is actually matter?) before chem, I consider sacrificing for chem (almost) worth it. Yesterday I was at a perfect 600. Tomorrow might get outta hand. A short school day till 2pm them off to study with a completely clueless friend. Will make me eat. I'm gonna drink 2 mugs of straight black coffee tomorrow for breakfast to kickstart my metabolism and nothing else till I meet her. I need to buy fucking gastric pills. I use my runny nose/ eczema ones to neutralize the acid, but I don't wanna end up immune to them, I don't know if panadol works, but I know painkillers make it ten times worse, though I kinda like the sedative effect. Sigh. Listening to Love Is All Around by Wet Wet Wet now.

Dinner today was forcing two moderately large greasy as hell till they shine barbecue chicken. Now my family's eye is turning towards me AGAIN. And my sister looks just about 37KG to outsiders. OH I SEE. SHE'S BU-LI-MIC, REMEMBER? SO AS LONG AS YOU SHOVEL DOWN BOWLFUL AFTER BOWLFUL OF FOOD IN FRONT OF THEIR FACES BUT SHRINK LIKE A FUCKING DRIED FOOD THINGY, YOU GET THE FUCK AWAY WITH IT. OH I GET IT! So. The point is not the getting thin, it's the journey there that pushes their buttons. I see. ENLIGHTENMENT!

Muther fuq.

anyhoo.

I am 98 today.

Despite the nine hundred calorie sin, I am 98.

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