TRIGGER

Wintergirls. Is. Toxic.

Beautiful, perfect.

82 incisions. Wide and thin surface-skimming ones.

I stand by what I said last year. Currently, I think 84 is still the perfect weight.

Gonna listen to ''paperbag'' by Fiona Apple till it's stuck in my head.

Doing a protocol-style scroll through my crush's fb photos.

Means nothing to me.

I prefer his presence.

I want to be 84.

Fat

Bitch

Selfish

Lazy

Unreliable

The song's getting sickening.

82 cuts.

2 below the perfect weight.

I want him to be mine.

Want God to share him with me.

I love him.

I don't think he's perfect.

Not at all.

I'm in love with his imperfections.

Will keep listening, starting to like it.

FAT FAT FAT PIGGGG

Your photos are boring,

But please please please don't be in love with someone else.

Changing the fucking song.

I love him so much.

His personality.

His smile.

His oh, so endearing actions.

I love him I love him I love him I love him

82.

Then minutes fresh

Into the fucking shower.

I want to be thin.

Plan.

max 700 calories per day this week.

If only there wasn't school tomorrow.

Wanna stay up so late I can't feel tomorrow.

Cutting isn't something I think about.

I just do it.

Small

Skinny

Thin

Weightless

Taut

Clean

Pure

Tight and toned