Skateboarding.

Been skateboarding quite a bit, especially now that i've FINALLY learnt how to ollie. And suddenly, skateboarding became a hell lot more interesting:) The picture above is what an ollie is, in case you don't know, only mine's lower and sloppy, but i've just learnt it, so i'm not that hard on myself right now, I calculated on http://www.fatburn.com/free_tool_activity_burn.asp that an hour of skateboarding burns approximately 243 calories, and since it's a lot more interesting now, I can spend around 2 and a half hours skateboarding without even noticing the time fly by. In fact the only reason I stopped yesterday after 2 hours 20 minutes of skateboarding was because I fell, and the abrasions were stinging too much for me to continue. So, yup, quite a great accomplishment. A sport I fell in love with, it burns a lot of calories, a way to pass my after-exam time and also a trick learnt:) Though now I have to control myself at Forever 21, cuz I think I really need to save up for all the safety gear and helmet and stuff.

I don't plan to weigh myself until the 24th of October, which is in about 14 days time, and in the mean time, every single day I'm gonna try and skateboard or at least engage in a sporting activity that burns off at least 200 calories. I'm quitting soccer, due to the fact next year's my A levels, and also the inter-school tournament, which means training's gonna be MANY (up to 5) times a week. And perfectionist (to a certain extent) as I am, anything that stands in the way of me getting the best grades possible goes out the window. And also the soccer girls are becoming really fake, and I CANNOT STICK FAKE GIRLS.

Speaking of results, on Friday during morning assembly, my usually angry, give you that i'm-gonna-eat-you-up glare chem teacher came up to me looking happier than i've seen her this entire year, shook my hand and congratulated me on getting "really good results". That incident has been worrying me like mad ever since and I need to get it off my chest. What if I got like a B, like 69% or something? Or a low A, say, 71%? I won't be able to take it. I honestly don't think I deserve me congratulating myself on a grade if it isn't at least a 75%. Or what if I got a mediocre B grade, but SURPRISE! I got highest in class! So, congrats. I don't know what to think, she has agitated me to no end and I am going out of my mind trying to balance expectation and preparation for possible severe disappointment. SHOULD NOT HAVE DONE THAT. I swear when she's returning it, my heart, stomach and intestines will be in my throat.

I suppose my view in good grades is exactly the same as my view on weight. If I'm 100, I want 97, if i'm 95, I want 90 and so on. For grades, if I get 67, I want 70, if I get 70 I want 75, if I get 80 i'll want 95, if I get 99% i'll be freaking pissed cuz it's a mark to 100. This might kill me one day but I don't really care. I just want better, better and better and even if I can help it, i'm not going to, cuz it's good to get better whenever you can. And when I get a grade like 67% and everyone's like OMG YOU DID SO WELL THIS TEST WAS SO DIFFICULT blah blah blah. Well I suppose others would decline the compliments cuz of the reverse psychology thing where they get reassurance in the form of even more compliments. But NO. I get truly pissed. And if they don't back off, I will and I will show them how truly pissed I am by yelling or retreating or something. Like, who the eff am I to receive compliments for something I really don't deserve? Bitch, please.

10 mins jump rope, moderate=81

10 mins jumping jacks= 65

1 hour skateboarding=243

8mph running 20 mins=219

stationary bicycling moderate 20 mins= 114

1 mins sit ups=6

10 mins brisk walk=32

10 mins breaststroke swimming= 81

Starving till dinner tomorrow, maybe with the help of gastric pills, maybe skateboarding in the afternoon then dinner with a good friend, who knows, thinks i'm out of it but is still slightly worried. I need to save up for Vans, unless I get my parents to buy it for my christmas.