All the world's a bastard

I really hate my dad. one for the obvious reason is that he is ridiculously obese. he is freaking perpetually 6 months pregnant. his neck is like.... non existent and his arms are the absolutely flabby shits. And the worst thing is he hasn't exercised AT ALL for many years, and refuses to do so and he KEEPS ON EATING AND EATING AND EATING AND EATING. not healthy stuff at all. like he likes making curry for himself and for every pot he puts in about at least 1-2 packets of full cream coconut milk. and he's bringing us to China at the end of the year.. when i protested cos i hate China, he started telling me about the food, how everyone will be allowed a giant bowl of noodles a day and the huge mac outlets and all.. he said it as if it was a good thing.. and i was like "oh. so we're going there for the FOOD." he was like "the food, travel and weather" i was thinking "yeah right.. if you went there by yourself you would spend the entire day sitting in the hotel stuffing your face and doing nothing else".

fuck, i'm so ashamed to be his daughter. my mom noticed ants in their toilet, which is a sign of diabetes.. he got real mad when she mentioned it and refuses to go for the test.. i wonder how many people denial has killed. well i sure hope he's one of them:)

There's this girl in my class who i met when we were 13. she used to REALLY HATE ME. until the end of last year. well she has been trying to lose weight for a really long time, and it kinda worked..but not that much. i can tell she is watching me all the time.. annoyingly. Very recently, she has started to notice whether i eat something and just yesterday i refused to eat something that everything was eating, she saw me not eat it and she didn't as well. It's the first time she's done that. sigh.

Now it seems like everybody has stopped asking me like why i only eat healthy stuff and like why i only drink diet soda and water and tea and all.. i think they decided to stop questioning. might as well get used to it since they can't do anything about it:)

All the world's a Bastard nowadays.

I hate my family

I avoid my friends

It's just too bad i'm not skinny enough to enjoy the privilege of getting killed by Anorexia