EVERYTHING ON MY MIND.

UGH. i wish my friends would just leave me the hell alone

seriously. it's sooo obvious that they know i have ED and they know i am antisocial. to the point that they can talk about going out in front of me and not feel awkward about not asking me to go with them. and i really don't get why the hell they even bother anymore to look at me or to be nice.

i saw the newest anorexic in my school. guess what, i'm almost just as skinny as her:) the thing is they've started talking about her. they were talking about me last time.. it sucked.. one honest friend told me they were saying " have you seen (my name).. she's so skinny!!"

wtf.

I DONT NEED A STUPID SOCIAL LIFE.

anyways.. today's intake:

energy bar (fuck that--kill me) :190

multigrain bread with spread: 123

total: 313

SO not gonna eat till dinner..

i wonder when it'll be safe again to start spitting my dinner out again, i stopped cuz i was caught..

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't belong here...