BAGGY UNDERWEAR!!!

OMG! i'm overjoyed!! you see, ever since a few years ago, i had to start wearing L sized underwear.. the other day when i went to wear my bras, i bought underwear as well, of course L sized ones as usual.. i'm wearing one of them now and GUESS WHAT!!!!

IT'S LOOSE!!! WOOHOOO! i love love love this!!!:DDDDD nothing can beat the exhilaration of getting smaller.. (ok, i admit it, baggy underwear is HELL uncomfortable!)

Plus my upper arms are getting smaller by the day:) Really wish i could show you guys..

I bought a new blade.. well the thing is that whenever i want to test this kinda stuff like how sharp a blade is or if my pen has ink i'll just touch myself really lightly with it so i ran the edge of the blade EXTREMELY (and i mean extremely) lightly over my knuckles.. i got cut immediately.

ok. i know that there is something very wrong with me and that i shouldn't be feeling like that,but whenever i cut myself with a blade This manner, if you know what i mean, i actually get high, my heart pumps faster, my blood rushes faster and i do get a little dizzy.. i don't know why, is it the feeling of power and control it gives me? The sight of my own blood which i drew by myself? ahhh crap. another proof ima freak. maybe i shouldn't have bought it.

Must get over it. i know i must.. but it's addictive. And i can't be bothered getting help. They'll find out about my ED and then the whole world will watch my eating habits under a microscope.( and all other habits too) EW.. spare me that.

ok.. enough of my freakiness.

It's Singapore's national day today.. and YET AGAIN my family will wanna watch the parade on TV .. so annoying. >:( The only thing i like is the march pass and nothing else( cos the co ordination and the marching's so darn cool..) can't be bothered with the rest

can't wait for the football season to start next week!! It's Arsenal vs Liverpool next Sunday!

I just started Loving Tokio Hotel!! They're AWESOME!!